Transmogrifier ...

Now he is a wild horse, galloping through the hills and meadows, his brown flowing mane flittering in the breeze.

Then, now, he is a furry little creature, gnawing gently on a tasty nut, twitching his fluffy tail. 

He turns into a wise old owl, his large eyes filled with unfathomable kindness, under those all knowing eyebrows.

Oh, now he is a gorgeous dragon, orange, and all ablaze, taunting to be tamed and ridden on.

and then, now he is a bright doggy, all soft and squishy and cuddly and warm - toungey and licky.  

Now a silverback gorilla, pushing and tossing away gargantuan fallen trees to clear a path.

and he is a rocky mountain goat, unfazed by the steepest of heights, defying gravity like it's his second nature.

How does he change into all these so effortlessly?

Does he possess the magical fish hook of Maui? The shape-shifting demigod of the wind and sea and master of wayfinding?

umm, no; He regularly chutes himself through the ...

Searching for a song ...

You are a pivot animated 3D figure suspended in the ocean, underwater.

The sea is psychedelic blue all around, occasional glimmers of brilliant light flashing on the ocean surface some distance above you.   

The song.

The song is a glistening ball floating around, which you have to catch.

You can only move as much as the pivot on the navel allows. That is, no translatory movement.

eyes closed.

You search and reach for the ball. It floats away. The more you move, the less you may get it.

Now relax and let the oceans bring it to you. slowly, slowly, very slowly ... and voila!

I feel the divine ...

I feel the divine ...

I feel the divine, my dearest

In this immense beauty you hold

blinking, into your deep, dark eyes

I feel myself, now reborn, all around you

seeing you, in my mind, past your face

In the million hues of your soul,

I feel the divine, my dearest

In this immense beauty you hold

blinking, into your deep, dark eyes

I feel myself, now reborn, all around you

many a mountain peak, I scaled

seeking you, my love, in my heart

let’s go forth, you and me,

into this splendid world, that’s waiting for you

let’s make footprints, with love,

on these pristine sands, of a charming beach

none has seen, inside me, this brimming lake of love;

and now your fingers, my dearest,

have made it burst open, and flow unto thee.

I feel the divine, my dearest

In this immense beauty you hold

blinking, into your deep, dark eyes

I feel myself, now reborn, all around you

seeing you, in my mind, past your face

In the million hues of your soul,

I feel the divine, my dearest

In this immense beauty you hold

blinking, into your deep, dark eyes

I feel myself, now reborn, all around you

the sky and the sands may fade,

like morning dreams;

but we’ll stay, you and me, forever,

in this timeless embrace

this unreal world will melt,

and flow down; in falling, sparkling waters;

my dearest, we’ll stoop down and drink,

from these glorious streams, till eternal bliss.

into this world, is now spreading

your magic, my dearest, squeezed out from your soul

as it makes way, for me, crawling inside,

and I start dwelling there, in your cocoon of love

seeing you, in my mind, past your face

In the million hues of your soul,

I feel the divine, my dearest

In this immense beauty you hold

blinking, into your deep, dark eyes

I feel myself, now reborn, all around you.

inspired by: Naan Un Azhaginile, 24 - Tamil Movie, 2016.

The Red Sail Boat ...

So there was this red sail boat - with a single huge billowing white and red sail, and two additional small red hulls on either sides.

I was perched on a small seat in the front, looking out and around

and, there was this vast expanse of the backwater lake in front of me; its deep dark grey waters gently rippling away close to me, so close that if I just stretch my arms out, it will touch my fingers.

The lake was littered with floating islands of water weeds, hundreds of them - from tiny little ones, to really big ones covering large areas of water, and floating tree logs, and resting cormorants perched on stumps jutting out of the dark water - their wings spread wide, looking like prehistoric flying dinosaurs.

and, there was my trainer, sitting behind me, in the rear seat of the boat.

and there was wind gushing across the lake; the direction of which I could not quite gauge. I kind of concluded that it definitely is not blowing in a direction that would propel us directly on to the shore. I was wondering how we are to get this boat there with a wind like this.

but my trainer was unfazed. The boat was gently and surely being blown off in a direction; some direction; definitely not towards the shore. He did not seem to be paying even a tiny resemblance of heed to this rather discomforting fact.

then he loosened the sail, did some flap flaps with it, did some manoeuvring and then pulled at it. The white and red sail billowed again. The sail boat was now being blown off in a sort of opposite direction; but still definitely not towards the shore.

I sat there watching, keenly observing where this was all going, literally.

he deftly weaved the boat through floating islands of water weeds, tree logs and prehistoric flying monsters perched on stumps; now in this direction and now in the other - but never towards the shore, or so it seemed to me.

So I asked him,

"Master, if we keep going like this, this way and that way, wherever the wind is taking us, how can you be sure we will reach where we want to go?"

He smiled and said,

"Because I know where I want to go."

:-)

P.S: Did I forget to mention what to do when there is no wind? You have to paddle.

Fullfilment for the child ...

What lies buried deep inside of you?

The long, fifteen years you spent as a kid - coming into this world, with not much choice on where or when or why; and then figuring out how to get a grip on it - and then the not so long, a few years you spent as a teenager - trying to take all that figuring out you think you managed to do, and see how it flies. 

Then your adult life takes over. You learn, you explore, you figure out how to make a living, progress in life and possibly do great things - and the world thinks that you have made it. Sometimes it is referred to as having arrived. Many a times from smalltalk, books, news, television, movies and so on; one can catch stories - of such arrivals - of the people, who have achieved great things with their lives; of their lives, considered as those posessing fullfilment.

But does this necessarily mean fullfilment for that, what lies buried, deep inside you?

More than likely, not.

Over those forming years, the child inside you would have accumulated its wants and needs and cravings and oh sure, its insecurities - all of which lies buried, very deep inside you.

Information on fullfilment for that - is customarily not something that is publicised widely by mostly anybody. It is not something that people enquire others of. It is not something on which books, stories, television shows, movies or even plain vanilla accolades are made. One is quite unlikely to catch any stories - of such inner child fullfilments - of the people, who have experinced that; of the lives they lived when their inner child was; happy and fullfilled.

One could imagine that the likelihood of such a fullfilment - of the wants and needs and cravings accumulated by your inner child over its forming years; and the allaying of its insecurities -  is probably majorily dictated by how one's life is lived connected to, and with, the people who are closest to one's heart and mind. One could also postulate that this is not necessarily connected to 'accepted arrivals' - the kind that were pondered on a short while back.

More often than not, fullfilment for the inner child, maybe sort of, is an 'enlightenment' - which is probably impossible to accurately explain to anybody.

:-)

Inventors of Love ....

For the overly philosophically inclined, this is about romantic love - the kind that gives you butterflies in your stomach. So if that's not the kind you are looking for, look elsewhere ... :-) 

Remember a couple of centuaries ago, ... there was no internet? no cars, no vaccum cleaners ... no coffee machines? no ballpoint pen?? ... How did all these things come about?

Inventors.

There have always been doers; for when we do, we think of what is - and there have always been dreamers; for when we dream, we think of what could be - and when someone turns what could be into what is, there's an inventor for you.

Homo Sapiens started roaming the earth some 40,000 years ago, and they have been continuing to do that out till the present day. Were the early Homo Sapiens used to falling in love? Maybe ... who knows ... but they sure were used to reproducing; as evidenced by the fact that they are continuing to do the roaming bit till the present day.

But, try to remember, a few centuaries ago, ... would a Homo Sapien be mixing together a playlist that includes - "Bleeding Love", and send it off to his girl of desire when she's down handling her monthly good friend? ... think that he can send her a bouquet of newly sharpened pencils to remind her of fall colors? ideate that biting a dark chocolote piece off of her supple lips is a good idea? ... postulate that standing at the edge on the bow of a ship behind her and spreading her arms out wide can make her fly? ... imagine that he can sit forever lost in her eyes across a coffee place table, over a mist of hot chocolate vapours?? ... write love letters???

I doubt it. Probably they were used to just exchanging a few looks, smell each other and then be like, "ok, let's reproduce now."

So how did all these things come about? Inventors, my dear friend! When the Doers of the post Jurassic period where busy doing the smelling each other and reproducing bit - which to them was, what is - the Dreamers were lost in imagining what could be ... and as soon as the right technology became available, they started recording what they inevented; in ... songs and stories and pictures and books and ... and then, ... lo and behold, full length romantic movies!!

So there you have it, records of these inventions - dreams of the inventors of love - records of what could be; calling you to turn them into what is. Do it.

Keep dreaming.

"I want to be in love," she said.

She had said it at supper. And her parents had widened their eyes and stiffened back in their chairs. "Patience," had been their advice. "Remember, you're remarkable. Our whole family is odd and remarkable. We can't mix or marry with ordinary folk. We'd lose our magical powers if we did. You wouldn't want to lose your ability to 'travel' by magic, would you? Then be careful. Be careful!"

-- The April Witch, Ray Bradbury.

പാതാള പൂന്താരകൻ ...

Pangio Pathala; a magnificent fish that lives way deep in the underground acquifers ...

നീ പാതാള പൂന്താരകനെ പറ്റി കേട്ടിട്ടുണ്ടോ ഷാജീവാ?

ആരും കാണാത്ത ആഴത്തിൽ പതുങ്ങിയിരിക്കുന്ന ഒരു ഭയങ്കരനാ.

ഒരു ദിവസം ഒരു യക്ഷി അവനെ കണ്ടു പിടിക്കാൻ തീരുമാനിച്ചു. കാട്ടിൽ കൂടെ ഒരു കൊട്ടേം തലയിൽ വെച്ചാണു യക്ഷിയുടെ പോക്ക്. നല്ല ഭംഗിയുള്ള കാട്ടിൽ കൂടെയാ പോക്ക്.

ചുറ്റും എങ്ങും കാണാത്ത ജീവികളാ.

ഒരു കുഴപ്പം. യക്ഷിക്ക് വഴി അറിയില്ല.

പക്ഷെ കാട്ടിലെ മരങ്ങളും മൃഗങ്ങളും പക്ഷികളും എല്ലാം യക്ഷിയെ കണ്ട് അങ്ങോട്ടും ഇങ്ങോട്ടും കണ്ണിറുക്കി. അവർക്ക് യക്ഷിയെ അറിയാം.

കുറേ ദൂരം ചെന്നപ്പോ, വഴിയിൽ ഒരു പന്ത് കിടക്കുന്നു. യക്ഷി അതെടുത്ത് കൊട്ടയിൽ ഇട്ടു. അത് അവളുടെ കൊട്ടയിൽ ചുരുണ്ടു കിടന്നു. 

പിന്നെയും കുറേ ദൂരം ചെന്നപ്പോ യക്ഷിക്ക് തോന്നി - ആ വഴി പോയി നോക്കാം? പിന്നെയും കുറച്ചു ചെന്നപ്പോ തോന്നി - ഈ വഴി പോയി നോക്കാം? അല്ലെങ്കി വേണ്ട, മറ്റേ വഴി?

അങ്ങനെ യക്ഷി നടപ്പു തന്നെ.

പക്ഷെ പൂന്താരകൻ എവിടെയാ ഇരുന്നതെന്നറിയാമോ?

Bruce Banner: You found me.
Betty Ross: You weren't that hard to find.
Bruce Banner: Yes, I was.

-- The Hulk, 2003.

Story seed courtesy: The trailer of -  ചുരുളി, 2021.

.....

The boy looked inside,

The land was brimming with greenery. Thin blades of grass sprouted from everywhere, many of them ending in bright little dots of cheerful flowers. An occasional butterfly rested on some, spreading and flapping its patterned wings to catch the bright sun.

He gently parted the grass with his hands and peered in.

The wet dark earth was covered with green moss, glistening with drops of dew. A few red ants walked past, murmuring behind each others backs. A bright spotted lady bug paused; and crawled back inside the leaf bed.

The boy hesitated.

He stayed still for a few moments. Then he extended his hand and gingerly touched the earth with his index finger.

The earth creaked and gave way. It began to part.

The boy looked inside.

It was there, red and wet and pulsing in its relaxed rhythmic beat.

He touched it.

It had become tender with love.

In the moment ...

The internal monologue.

All of us have that feature; one feature that takes up a major percentage of our minds. It is the pseudo conversation like thought stream that goes on inside you. It runs in a constant thread in your brain most of the time, sometimes sharp and strong and at other times a little feeble, maybe.

The internal monologue remembers and analyses your past, imagines and plans stuff that you want to do - today, tomorrow, next week and far in the future, it ponders whether what you are doing is really the best thing to do etc. etc.

But, as you can realise if you observe it, rarely does it nestle about in the present; the immediate present, right now, in the moment.

'In the moment' is an altogether different sensation plane.

Its something you will experience when your internal monologue is mostly suspended, but all your senses are awake, and actively attended upon. How can one slide oneself into that state?

Well, you can do it the next time when you take a walk.

Consciously stop immersing yourself in thoughts, and keep walking.

Look at the colour of the ground; the colour of the ground is different from that of the stone lying nearby; look at the grey dark texture on the stone; don't think, just look.

Look at the leaves, see how one bends in the passing breeze but the next one shakes and vibrates instead.

See the ants and insects crawling on the leaves, watch how their legs move in perfect sync.

Listen to the tones in the next bird's call or dog's barking or an engine revving. Hear the twigs crackle under your feat.

Watch how the sky and trees are reflected in the next muddy puddle.

See how the world moves past when you walk forward, changes in perspective and angles and watch how things move into your field of view.

Keep yourself immersed in the sensory world; do not think; just see everything you can watch, listen to everything you can hear, smell every waft of air and observe everything that moves and everything that stands still.

Feel the breeze on your skin, and in every hair strand.

Now when your internal monologue kicks back in, pause a bit;

You were 'in the moment' for a brief while and are now back.

Thought rewinding ...

Try to arrest your constantly flowing thoughts for a moment,

Its like you have been trekking down a heavily wooded hillside and have suddenly come out into a clearing; a grassy clearing with a large something in the middle. The something would be the image of your mind's last thought. That image is very clear in your mind, and mostly the image of the just previous thought also. You may also remember the image of a thought that occurred sometime back; like say when you started the trek, to fit it into this scene.

But can you bring forth into your mind the images of every big stone, huge tree and colorful flower on the path that you just trekked down?

Translating; can you remember all the thoughts, or images of thoughts, that occurred between that old thought whose image is clear to you and the very last thought thats crisp on your mind?

Mostly not, unless you are aregular practioner of the art of thought rewinding.

Thought rewinding should begin, obviously, from the very last thought. Mostly, the image of the just previous thought would also be clear in your mind or you could rather easily recall it. But the image of the one prior to that may not be visible. Do not lose heart, its surely hiding somewhere remote in your neuron circuits. With some effort and a few trials you should succeed in bringing it back. Now look for the previous one, it may get harder as you go back. Sometimes, surprisingly, chunks of thought links may present themselves all in a flash.

This way, slowly, one by one you can complete all the links till the initial one; and you have successfully done what I call thought rewinding. You may also start from the initial thought or explore from both ends and meet in the middle or fit chunks in the middle etc.

And,

You are said to have attained 'Thought Nirvana' when you can rewind all the way back to very first thought that occurred to you when you woke up today!

:-)

Languages, a wandering species of living beings ...

Ever considered your mother tongue as a living being? A throbbing, pulsing organism that lives in the evanescent spoken words of its people, sleeping in all the inscribed letters if it has a script, swaying about in the phrases, idioms, sayings, songs and stories, leaving its footprints with the written novels, books and poems; ever growing and expanding.

A language thus viewed more than qualifies to be considered as a species of living being. A species that senses the world around it and processes the inputs through its people, the manifesting extensions, expressing its reactions through them as those spoken words, inscribed letters, songs and stories and such.

How about the evolution of languages? could it be similar to the evolution of other flora and fauna? Maybe; The first type of language that came came into existence might be the sign language, the lean, low-fat, no frills form probably equivalent to single cell organisms which are the forebearers of all living beings today. Then they must have evolved depending upon their environment.

Consider languages in geographically and or otherwise separated regions; germinating, incubating and taking birth in unconnected worlds. They evolve in different environments, adding different organs; extenders, antennae, long necks and jumping legs, suited for that environment. They develop a vocabulary, grammar and other arsenal to express complex concepts. Separately they grow into completely different unconnected organisms, but living in the very same universe.

What happens when two unconnected and different species of languages come into contact? How would they interact? Can we compare that with with way two previously unknown biological species interact?

Could they be staring at each other intently at the beginning? They may growl at each other, uttering different sounds mostly meaning the same thing. They may just turn around and go on each others way. But what could they do if the circumstances demand them to interact? Would they then circle around? watching and observing, forming an impression of the other? trying to learn what the other is doing?

They might have to try and find a common ground, any common ground, a basis to start reconciling with each other. They may have to resort to sign language itself, the most basic common ground, to make one meaningful to the other.

Then it may progress, words for the different signs, pointing to the same things and uttering words for them in each others tongue, connecting them and understanding sentences, comparing alphabets, vowels, consonants and more and more ...

:-)

Are all your love songs in the same key?

Are all your love songs in the same key?

maybe ... :-)

It nevertheless might mostly be true that nobody acts in the exact same manner in any life situation if it chooses to repeat itself after some time.

So why would all love songs of one be in the same key?

Firstly, what is the meaning of that hypothesis?

It means exactly the same as in the music realm. Two songs in the same key can sound and feel very different, but one is able to extract an underlying theme that connects them.

Along the same lines, a common theme could probably be extracted from the various apparently unconnected amorous exertions of any personality. The self's intangible amorphous 'definition' of 'love' would be that common theme. All those amorous exertions probably can be linked as different songs composed in the key of this particular amorphous definition.

One could postulate that some extensive introspection would be needed on the person's part to decipher this common key. Individuals who would not want to bother with this would mostly keep singing all their love songs in the same key. The key itself probably might change a little with time, but solidifies more and more as life progresses.

But, as any learned musician can, an enlightened self can consciously keep altering the key once in a while, giving the songs different feels, spice and variation.

Also, do remember that a myriad of wonderful songs can be composed in the same key itself.

... :-)

Imagination and Improbability Drive ...

The Infinite Improbability Drive, in The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, is a wonderful new method of crossing vast intersteller distances in a mere nothingth of a second without all that tedious mucking about in hyperspace.

It is based on a particular perception of quantum theory: a subatomic particle is most likely to be in a particular place, such as near the nucleus of an atom, but there is also a small probability of it being found very far from its point of origin (for example close to a distant star). Thus, a body could travel from place to place without passing through the intervening space (or hyperspace, for that matter), if you had sufficient control of probability. This way the drive “passes through every conceivable point in every conceivable universe almost simultaneously,” meaning the traveller is “never sure where they’ll end up or even what species they’ll be when they get there” and therefore it’s important to dress accordingly.

In essence it is nothing but a contraption that attempts to create a probability field of infinite improbability. This field can make things happen; things that have the remotest, minutest, infinitesimal chances of happening in normalcy. As said before, the travellers of the infinite improbability drive can have no idea what they will be holding when the drive is turned off.

A point worth deliberating at this juncture is that the human brain, through the travails of evolution, is already capable of employing such a drive.

Imagination.

Think of that micro moment at which you had the stellar idea that lead you to the Nobel prize, or, mm, your girlfriend's undulant adoration would also do. At that very fine, thin moment, your brain clamps to something that previously was not anywhere in the remotest realms of your consciousness.

It can be said that in such moments the brain micro momentarily switches to near infinite improbability drive and comes out with something unknown before, something un-conceived and completely new, something that only had the remotest, minutest, infinitesimal chance of residing in your thought-space.

Think of the micro instant; instant when Newton thought why the apple should fall down, when Einstein thought that light's velocity should be constant, when Michelangelo thought that Monalisa should contra-smile, or, rather, something very recent,

when me postulated that the human brain has an improbability drive, 

:-)

and such, and such ...

The most vital ingredient in cooking ...

Cooking is an art, at the very least.

The art of picking and selecting, preaparing and processing, and serving up the most wholesome and succulent recipes; which are, in other words, a harmonious mix; of ingredients.

Ingredients play a vital role in determining the palatability of the product of the cooking act. They have to be carefully chosen, pre-processed and mixed in proper proportions so that the recipe under making attains its full vitality.

What is, or could be, the most vital ingredient in cooking? The one which can, by it's sheer magic, turn even an under average product into a tasty dish? The silver bullet in the chef's arsenal? 

What could it be? pepper? garlic? parseley? cloves? ... na, nothing of the sort. 

It is, love.

Love, for her who is gonna taste the dish. Love, that wants to make her go 'mmm...'  with the first mouthful. Love, that likes her to lick her fingers in total satisfaction. Love, that yearns to make her smile.

Love tenders the spices, adjusts the thickness, restores the flavour and heals the recipe.

The silver bullet in the chef's arsenal that, by its sheer magic, can turn an under average product into a tasty dish.

That love, is the most vital ingredient in cooking. 

:-)

why? why? why?

Wheels of change and relics ...

Jalahalli is an area about 30 kms from the centre of Bangalore, or so to speak.

Kenneth Anderson, the famous Irish hunter-writer who lived in British India before the 70's writes about an incident in Jalahalli. This must have happened somewhere in the 60's. He talks about a Jalahalli that is a mildly forested area with lots of wastelands and areca nut plantations. Large areas of scrubbed thorny land merging into the forests. There, he tells the story of a leapord who strayed into one of those plantations, and the story of the people who try to get rid of it. The leapord fights valiantly and mauls and kills a number of people though he himself gets badly shot, incarcerated and injured, and dies of blood loss and fatigue.

Turn forward for just about fifty or so years, which is well within the range of an average person's life, and look at Jalahalli now.

Now Jalahalli is a bustling suburb, buildings and shops and broad roads, apartments and maddening crowds. Not even a remote sign of shrub lands and such. Leapords live only in children's stories and the Discovery channel.

The turning wheels of change have rolled them far back and away. They are now old, forgotten;

They have been made relics.


and yet, in this turning wheels of change, something remains the same, constant, immutable throughout;

which is, open your mind, and see, the land, the canvas, the earth ...

and one Malayalam poem snippet,

Physical reminders ...

There are many devices and schems people use to remind them of things to be remembered, done, despatched etc.

When thinking about reminders, I am reminded of some particular sort them that I often use, and I think most people do in one form or another, which I call 'physical reminders' ...

Now what in the very milky way is a physical reminder? Let me explain with an example ...

Sunday morning, I have washed clothes in the washing machine and have put them in the clothesline on the terrace. Now they have to be taken back in the evening or else they might get wet again in a chance rain in the night or from the certain dew of the next morning. Now I could certainly set an alarm in my mobile phone at say like 5.30 in the evening or so to ring me and remind me to tackle the clothes. Instead, I do something else; I keep the washing machine lid open.

Now, an open washing machine lid is an abnormal thing, an anomaly in The Matrix. Whenever I see the open lid, I am reminded that the clothes are on top, and to decide whether I want to take them in now! I, then think, how was the amount of sun today, was it cloudy etc. etc. and whenever I feel that the clothes would be dry enough, I go up and take them back and close the lid.

That's what I mean by a physical reminder; a physical unusualness, abnormality, or anomaly, to remind you of something. Since its an anomaly, you are certain to remember what its supposed to remind you of.

Another one; When am in bed in the night, about to doze off, I remember that tomorrow I have to take two passport size photos of me to office. Now, I dont want to get up and put the photos in the backpack then, instead I throw my purse which is sitting on the bed side stand to the center of the floor. That's certainly an anomaly! When I get up in the morning, the first thing I see is the purse lying on the center of the floor and am immediately reminded to put the photos in the backpack. Purpose achieved!

And I have a bunch of such contrivances in my repertoire.

One antagonist anecdote here; in the film 'The Day I Became a Woman' by Marzieh Makhmalbaf, the third part, a rich elderly widow who inherited a lot of money decides to buy and get everything that was denied to her in her youth and her childhood by the rules of the society and religion. She ties many colored ribbons to every one of her fingers to remind her of the multiple things she wanted. She hires many boys to help her, take her to the market, carry the things for her etc. She goes about buying and getting everything, ribbon by ribbon ...

till one last ribbon remains ... but for the life of her, she can't remember what it was supposed to remind her of.

:-)

Entertainment for the kid ...

The middle aged man sat in the train trying to engross himself in the day's edition of The Economic Times. His head, where baldness had started making its very slow ascend, did not have many of the grey strands yet. His family sat around and across him which included his middle aged wife, who was herself buried in some kind of magazine; a teenage daughter, elder one, busy herself with a book, and two boy kids - one probably has just started to go to school, and the still younger one maybe is of three or four years of age.

He is immersed in reading. The two kids are quarrelsome, a rather obvious case of sibling rivalry. He gets irritated at times by the ruckus the kids are making - and shouts at them to behave. He goes back to his reading, jumping from one article to another one. He is probably aware of me squinting at him and the whole scene intermittently but clearly has no difficulty in ignoring me.

One could postulate that he, his adult self rather, is trying to provide itself with 'entertainment' by the reading that he is performing. This may sound like an injustice to the conventional sense of the word - 'entertainment' - but deep down the psychological purpose probably is the same. The adult self is getting entertained. He is completely in control of himself, prim and proper; no emotional surf breaking the placid sea of his face.

The scene changes after some time. The two kids start playing the game of cricket using their fingers. One is the batsman and the other the bowler. Both have to show, at the same instant, a number, using the fingers of one arm only. Thats one ball. If the bowler manages to show the same number as the batsman's, then the batsman is out. If they are different the batsman gets a number of runs equivalent to the number he has shown. One bats till he gets out, then the other bats and tries to outscore him. They shout, the younger one sometimes screams, with a raw pleasure in each show of fingers.

The father looks up at times on this game. He seems to be slowly picking up the rules, without any conscious trying, from the ongoing exchanges. The elder kid is psychologically advanced, and often cheats the yonger one by employing a very minute delay in showing his fingers. The younger one wants Daddy as the referee and prods and pulls him into their middle. The father, having almost finished his Economic Times, obliges rather gingerly. Now frequently during balls where he loses out, the younger one looks at Daddy and questions, "Papa, late show?". Papa thinks for a a few seconds, and acknowledges sometimes, othertimes rejects vociferously with a vigorous shake of head. Couple of cliffhanger matches and the Papa is soon engrossed in the whole thing.

Now the younger one wants to play against Papa. The elder one takes up the referee role. The game ends up being a close contest - Papa is batting to outscore the kid. Now all three of them are excited and make noise at each ball. The kid hits Papa out just when he needed couple more runs and wins the game! Ha!

As he was slowly recovering himself from the excited state he catches a glimpse of me squinting at him and sheepishly tries to hide an automatically creeping smile from his lips. 

Now its the kid in him, the child self, that is getting entertained. The difference is stark - his self is more prone to surging emotional waves. His whole being is at instants catapulted to exalted states of consciousness. His face is no more placid.

A joyous state, this is - one very mellow, plesant, sparkling and bubbling inside with laughter - from my own experiences of this.

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Pace of life ...

pace of life ...

its a very volatile thing ... every night when you sleep, really sleep, it almost diminishes to zero as much as you can sense it ... then in the morning it starts again ...

and among the metro dwellers, its not uncommon for the pace of life to accelerate dizzyingly, just after waking up ... engines revving, rubber screeching on the asphalt ... the surroundings whirring past ... fast, blazing .. as randomly errupting emotions try to cling on to the speeding apparition in vain but steadfast ...

this might go on ... sometimes slowing down a bit, other times at max rotations per minute ... till you hit bed again ... common, very common ...

but then there is the other side ... when you really get a chance ... a break for a week or so ... in some idyllic .. or just relaxing, soothing place ... no violent noises ... no constant interrupts to process ... slow breath ... feeling the sips of a cool drink in the mouth ... expecting the next salubrious meal with a tingling tongue ... softly purring happy stomach ... slow turning sun ... breeze .. shades, glades ... and trees soaked in light ... blue sky and cushy puffs of clouds ... sound of flowing water ...

now this is slow pace ... which quite obviously is more regenerating ... detoxing, calming ...

but is there a natural fequency to life?

and if there is, if our pace of life accidently matches it, will there be a resonance?

and if it contiues for long enough .. will life shatter like a shiny champange glass?

... into a thousand glinting randomly shaped pieces??

enlightened ...